I really hate to feel this way when nothing is certain. When things fall short of expectations, we can never be sure of what might come along in the future. If only all surprises were pleasant. Apparently, not all are.

I guess each time when I feel disappointed, it teaches me something. Never be too sure. Never assume too much. Even the most assumable thing could just turn out in a way you would have never expected.

I don’t mean to be so negative right now. But I cannot lie to myself, when things kept failing me each time. Maybe I shouldn’t have bothered. Maybe I shouldn’t have cared. Maybe it wouldn’t hurt so badly right now.

But I guess I have to remind myself that, There are no guarantees in life. There is always a risk in doing anything. So there’s no point putting the blame on anyone.

Risk getting cheated. Risk getting hurt. Risk of getting something unexpectedly.

My only hope is that I still have the strength to take more risks. I believe in risk taking because that’s the only way to see a difference that I have intended. The greater the risks, the greater the pain when it fails, but the higher the returns when it succeeds.

Inner monologue: Okay kel! Cheer up! You have a week of holiday that starts tomorrow! Make use of it! Make it fun! :D