This might be the third christmas that dolly and I have spent together. But I can never forget how christmas was like for the first and second years.

We came back from a party at Kim Peng’s that was full of laughter and noises. We left her place around 1am. Back in my room, the world seemed to have quieten down. We started talking about the past. Usually I talk more than him. It was different tonight. He started talking more than he usually does, while I listened with my heart.

I don’t know why. Perhaps it’s the mood. Perhaps it’s the song that I am listening too. Perhaps it’s the day, the date and the very occasion itself. The memories came flowing back towards us.

When we feel so emotional about recalling something, it’s usually about something that once made us very unhappy.

We repeated the same stories all over again. I guess when we reiterate the events and thoughts and emotions, we learn new things about something we already know.

Ascertainment. Affirmation. Acknowledgement.

I might feel uncomfortable remembering the past, but at least, I gained the 3 things above. That’s a gift for me in this Christmas.

Merry Christmas to the two dolls and many more happy christmas to come :)